365 days ago...

One year ago today Thomas and I met with Dr Bonaventura for the first time.  We had been through 2 unsuccessful cycles of Clomid and had been referred to Dr B. to help us get pregnant (Dr. B is a fertility specialist).  I had been preparing myself for bad news and for a likely long road of fertility treatments ahead of us.  We went over our history and told him how even with the Clomid I had not been ovulating (thus no baby!).  I was currently on a third cycle of Clomid and he wanted to wait that cycle out before beginning anything new.  Before we left he decided to do a quick ultrasound of my ovaries.  We were thrilled to hear the ultrasound tech say there were 4 very large follicles (follicles are what release the egg- they get larger when they are about to release it).  This was GREAT news!  They sent us home with an injection of Ovidrel that I would give to myself that evening.  I remember asking on the way out, “So we COULD have 4 babies?!??!” her reply was that it would be less than a 10% chance to just have one at this point.

Little did we know that less than 2 weeks later we would have our very first positive pregnancy test and a little less than 9 months later we would be holding our precious Hudson in our arms!  How amazing of a journey!  When we went in for our first ultrasound in early January I told him we had to be the easiest couple he had worked with...after just one appointment we were pregnant!  That first ultrasound was very exciting...I thought for sure there would be 2 babies and now after raising just ONE baby I am SO glad there weren’t two!!  As soon as they said it was just one baby I immediately said, “It’s a boy”.  I just knew it would be!  For some reason late in the pregnancy my mind tried to trick me and I began thinking girl- but I think I knew deep down it was Mr Hudson the whole time!

Crazy to think our miracle baby is already 3 months old.  He absolutely is the most important thing in my life.  I often find myself just staring at him- taking in every little feature, trying to engrave it in my memory.  He is such a happy little boy always smiling and checking out the world around him.  I wish time could freeze- but then I know I would miss so many exciting “first’s”...1st birthday, 1st step, 1st day of school and so many more.   I wonder if he knows how much I love him and I also wonder what he thinks when he sees his momma and if he can possibly love me as much as I do him.  Motherhood is an amazing thing.  So thankful to be celebrating this anniversary day with  a sweet baby boy in my arms!